You know how when you were little and your parents would always want you to step back from the edge, to move back away from danger and closer to what they deem as “safe”…
Well that’s where I am at right now. I’m on the ledge and I can feel how close the danger zone is.. It’s almost unbearable at times.
This cycle was unsuccessful, again.
So what can I do now??
I am taking a step back. To get back to the “safe” zone where infertility doesn’t run my life. I know it’s a part of my story now.. But it is not who I am.
So I choose hope. I choose to trust God and His timing, because my heart is just too involved in this. I choose to let go as best I can. I choose my husband. I choose to be the wife he needs me to be, not the obsessive emotional woman I have become in the past year. I choose happiness and joy, the kind that can only be received through Him.
My Father has put his hand on me and lovingly told me to step back. & I am listening.