What I Can’t Do

Since being diagnosed with PCOS I have-

Become a vegetarian
Bought organic food
Taken 5+ vitamins/supplements daily
Started Maca Root Powder & Vitex
Added mild exercise 5 days a week
Gained about 5 lbs to increase my BMI
Postponed nursing school to focus on stress relief
Tracked my cycles, intimacy, and BBT
Avoided toxins, caffeine, alcohol, and continually trying to rid my home of chemicals.

I have laughed. I have cried. I have screamed. I have loved. I have lost.I have been tested. I have prayed. I have grown.

But the struggle… The constant pulling and aching at my heart does not go away. My cycles are still nowhere near “normal”. Regardless of all that I have done, I am sitting here with an empty womb and  the sadness sets in.

Then I’m reminded of this..

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I can’t fix my body. I can’t heal my own hurt. But He can.

Holding fast to His love.

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2 thoughts on “What I Can’t Do

  1. I like how you’re honest about what you’re thinking and feeling. I know it can be hard to find the right words to really convey the true depth of the feelings and emotions but I think you do it well. I love what you said at the end, “I can’t fix my body. I can’t heal my hurt. But He can.” Thank you for the reminder 🙂

    • Thank you so much! That means a lot. I really do love seeing how God can use our stories and struggles to help others. With that said, I’m grateful for the opportunity to share!

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